All the Beautiful things..

As I sit here with my coffee, I am making mental lists of all the things I will need for our trip. We are going to Ocean City, Maryland. This is my first time paying for a hotel room. My first time going on vacation with my boys, and my first vacation to the beach without my family. Lots of firsts for me. And the best first is, this is my first time going on a vacation with a friend, as an adult :) It's a very liberating feeling, having all those things combined. I am very very excited to be doing this with my friend, Jen and her kids. We have both had a rough year and really need this break away from real life.


This morning it was my last day for this school year to watch Theo, and it made me a little sad cause I've seen him grow from a little sleeping baby all the way to a walking, laughing boy! It's very cool to share that time with a child that's not your own. And so today, when his Mom dropped him off we were talking about our weekends, and I'll be celebrating Theo's 1st birthday with them tomorrow and then she said she was going to Ocean City, MD as well next week! And one conversation led to another and she invited me and the boys to stay the rest of the week with her there, instead of going home on Tuesday, so Wow! This will be an awesome vacation :) Lissa is a great person, and getting to know Her better will be a lot of fun.


So this was a great start to an already awesome weekend coming. I have been stressing this week and still stressing a bit because the whole way I've been doing my finances for the 10 months is drastically changing immediately. I am losing 2/3 of my income, and although I don't have 2/3 of the bills i had before, it is still a notable change and I am feeling it. Although everything should have been fine and comfortable, my ex husband, Jason, changed jobs again and didn't tell me and so all of a sudden, 50% of my now income stopped almost 3 weeks ago. I kept hoping it would pick back up and hoping everyday a payment would come in, but alas, it has not. Although he is trying to fix it, it is not fast enough, and I've wiped out my savings trying to keep up with the bills that were already scheduled and changing the ones I could. And not knowing I wasn't going to have this income at all (it comes weekly), I had no idea I needed to curb my spending for my coming up trip. So I am low. Dangerously low, and am really hoping God sees fit to provide some help for myself this next month. I should be okay, but depending upon men who have proven to be undependable is a dangerous game.


So, knowing I would be coming up on a summer of no income for myself, I have been applying to jobs, about a dozen so far in the last month, and I've not received any call backs yet. It's not looking good. I did pay off all my high bills, and I will have enough with what I have, assuring that Jason kicks back in, everything will be smooth this summer and I won't need to get a summer job. All i really need to pay are my car, car ins, and cell phone, and 2 new bills, but low payments until I start working again, so those aren't any big deal.


I guess I'm just rambling about my stressers this week. I know that a few weeks from now, this will be all water under the bridge and everything will be okay again... right? Right.


Now I am just looking forward to my 5 days of blissful-ness at a beautiful beach with my beautiful boys, and getting a beautiful tan... :)


Hello Sunshine... I know you've been waiting for me.... <3

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