Starting Over...

Well, today I have to go get my transcripts from Millersville sent over to HACC, and take the boys to see Cars 2. My sister, Kristal, is here from Indiana with her kids C.J., Caleb and Kambria, and today they are going with my Mom and my other sister, Jennifer and her kids Mckenna, Lance, Kiley and Madison to Gettysburg, Pa. They have been here for over a week, so it's been busy busy around here :)

Lately I have just been focusing on starting school and starting my life over. Trying to forget the past and just move forward without looking back. Unfortunately, that is insanely difficult. But I am trying really hard. Being a Nursing major is a BIG deal for me, it's a real goal with a name! Something I can say instead of just going to college, I'm going to be a Nurse! :) It makes me really happy to have a real goal.

I can't believe it's almost July.. Where did this year go?? Before I know it, it's going to be Christmas again, and then Griffin's 2nd birthday, and then Riley will be 8, and I will be 27... Those are very big numbers... especially that last one. Twenty-seven. It kinda makes me cringe. I don't like it. I am supposed to be married and moved into my own house by now, and especially by then.. I know it's still 11 months away... but it feels like it's practically right around the corner. But even still, I feel like since I am started school, I cannot even IMAGINE finding my husband and getting married before I finish. It's kind of weird thinking about it.

But in a year, I will be finished with my first year of school, and that much closer to getting my AA, and getting a stable job where I can buy my own house, and never ever need baby daddy money again. And all that money will be for my kids college funds. That's what I want.

Starting now, things will change. I will be adamant about not looking back and asking myself what if. I will be strong in my efforts to focus on school and my kids and looking forward. And I will be ready whenever God decides it's time for me to meet the man he's chosen for me.

I am going to start ending my blogs with what I am thankful for..

I am so thankful today that my kids are happy and healthy. That I didn't crack my head open at my sister's pool, and that Griffin didn't drown. And I am so grateful to be accepted into the Nursing program at HACC, so that I can really begin the next chapter in our lives.