Is really hoping things turn around..

I am not used to being so broke... it's... debilitating. It's like I don't even realize how broke I am until all the money is gone. It's not fun, trust me. I just went to the grocery store and got coffee, soda, bread, creamer and milk... staples in my house, trust me... it was $22.38, I spent $6.83 at home depot today getting screen for  the boys play house windows. I had $30.50 left in my account at the beginning of today... I can only hope I don't need to buy anything before next Wednesday. Because I literally can't.

I have put in applications at quite a few places and received no feedback yet. I am sure I put all the right information.

This is the MAIN reason I signed up for school. With a Nursing career I can work anywhere. I won't have to worry about money cause I'll make enough and I will NEVER have to be in this spot I am today again. Thank You GOD.

I just want to have a stable life. Play money for whatever the boys want or need, or to take a vacation. And independence. Seems like that is just what everyone wants. But you have to work for it. And that is why I'm going to school for the next 3 years, to work at school to be able to have everything that I want.

I registered for classes today, and got my placement test scores. I didn't do horribly at the math, but I still have to take some refresher courses. But in English and Writing I excelled :) I got a 94/100 and I only needed to pass at a 77. So I was happy with that, especially considering I had a very bad head cold and could not concentrate on anything. The DayQuil kicked in about mid-way through the test, so that was good.

I am a little nervous about starting classes. But I am glad to get out on my own two feet and start the beginning of having a career. It's what is best for me and my sons. I love them more than anything, and I will do anything to give them everything they want.

Today, I am thankful for the fact I was accepted into the Nursing program, and that I did well on my exam so that I don't have to take a bunch of courses I don't need for my AA.

I am grateful I have enough money in the bank to get what I needed, even if it was just enough, I was able to get it and not have to starve. I am grateful I have my parents to support me and my decision to go to school, and help me in watching the boys so I can attend classes.

And lastly, but most importantly. I am so thankful to have my boys. They make me strive to better myself and better our life. Giving them a good life is all I can hope for and work for, and having the ability to support them and take care of all their needs is the best thing I will do in my whole life. And thank you God for taking care of my cold, it got better before it got worse, and for that I am eternally appreciative.