Gravity..

I have the CD by Sara Bareilles with the song Gravity on it. I used to think it was a love song, talking about how she just kept coming back to this guy, and that there was just something about him that kept her tied to him. That was before.. when I still believed love could conquer anything. That as long as you loved eachother, it would always work out.


But now, as I have memorized the song, sang my heart out to it, and lost myself in it... I see the real meaning.


The meaning of this song is she loves him, loves him so much she can't let go. But she needs too. He keeps pulling her back, but he's not doing anything, but she keeps coming back. She says how he loved her for being fragile, when she always thought she was strong, but when he touched her, she became what he loved about her, but that wasn't really who she was. She tries to tell him that she needs him to be more, but he won't change, and she needs to let him go, because his hold on her is keeping her from living her life. Moving on. But she keeps coming back, even though she knows she needs to let him go. She tells him 'set me free, leave me be'... But I don't think she is literally talking to him, I think she is trying to yell her self to let go of him, set herself free, her thoughts to leave her alone..

This song reminds me so much of myself. How I've lived through my relationships. This whole CD is like Me. Lol. I relate so much to each word. I think her and I would get along well. Here are the lyrics:


Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, 
I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much
than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

  CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone.
 
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be.
I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you're
Everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe though I
Can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long..



This ia not typically the kind of blog I write, but the meaning of this song has slowing been dawning on me as I go through my healing stages of a broken heart. I am realizing more about myself and my weaknesses and where I am stronger than I thought.

It's a slow process, I know, but letting go of someone completely when they've been engraved onto your heart for 5 years is not the easiest thing, especially when you look into their eyes, through the eyes of your child, every single day.

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